Have you gone through redeployment or redundancy – how has it made you feel? Is it as easy as moving the pieces in chess ♟️and moving on as if nothing happened or has it left unresolved emotions and thoughts 💭?

As Brene Brown says ‘ you can’t get to courage without rumbling with vulnerability’.

Organisational changes can bring out a lot of emotions. Even when you think you are strong and can face each day boldly with a smile , sometimes, your human threshold can tilt.

Just like the Winter Olympics: we are comfortable when we are in a familiar ground and if thrown in an unfamiliar spot or position it throws us off course for a bit.

I have been very quiet the last few years at work – I feel as if I have been a bit like Fred the penguin in John Kotter’s ‘ Our iceberg is melting’ Penguin story – curious and observant. I must confess I have not been great at journaling as I say to myself I have a memory like an elephant. Recently, I have realised that I need to be true to myself and go back to my ‘pen’ to express thoughts. I still reflect on lessons from my old journalism class in KIMC and what it taught me!

I have always thought that I could morph easily and adapt to things. Since I relocated to the UK, I have had a squiggly career and always had a passion about making a difference and change.

However, the last two years have been a rollercoaster. I don’t know if you have ever been in a position where you feel the person you were is not there anymore – there is something missing.

I keep joking to my friend, I need to ‘’ Find my mojo’’ – where is the old self who was so confident and believed in themselves!

The last two weeks have almost been carthatic – it is as if I am going through a grieving process and feels like there is a scar that needs to heal! Thanks to my network of family and friends for supporting me through this storm even my Oesteopath for releasing some of the tension and pain in my body.

Some of you might have been on this journey or are living this journey now – the aftermath of re- organisation and its impact.

Are you surviving or thriving?

I am going to be as authentic as I can in my writing … watch this space for the next piece!